and never will

I remember trying really hard

then grew and moved away

still trying really hard

years later

when we talked again

I remember trying really hard

and when you were so ill

and died so horribly

I thought then that if I tried

really, really hard

I’d remember a time

but now I know for sure

no matter how hard I try

I won’t remember a time when I loved you

because I never did

and never will

more poems

playing happily

and never will

you didn't deserve it

the card

little red magnets

cursing softly

that's not living

that's despair

barely touching

the faintest of whispers

so much

all my reasons

that's why she's here

who did that to you

already dead